Those of you who have been following me on Twitter will have no doubt gathered by now that my health has been up and down over the past several months. I’ve been devoting a lot of time and energy to figuring out what’s going on with my body and doing everything I can to help it heal itself. Because of that, this blog has fallen largely by the wayside as I redirect my focus towards taking care of my physical, mental, and emotional health.
I figure I owe it to you, my beloved, longsuffering readers, to let you in on a bit of what’s been going on in my life during these past few weeks and months.
Posted by molly alice on January 22, 2013
My MoFo enthusiasm has dwindled to almost nothing over the past 48 hours, and for good reason. As it turns out, family drama, oppressive heatwaves, and bare cupboards do not a creatively conducive environment make. I’ve been lucky to make it out of bed these past two mornings, let alone budget any amount of energy towards kitchen-puttering and blog-post-composing. As it is, I’m doing my best to carry on.
First off, I feel a little naked writing without the interspersal of my usual giant photographs, but I’ll do my best to hold your attention without the aid of brightly colored pictorial representations of food. This may mean resorting to periodic bursts of ALL CAPS EXCLAMATIONS, so be warned.
Posted by molly alice on October 3, 2012
Today was an off-day for food preparation and consumption.
I made some carrot juice. Never having made carrot juice before, I adhered very stringently to the recipe I found. The recipe called for lemon juice, which I included, momentarily forgetting that I hate lemon juice in any incarnation other than lemon bars, lemon glazed sugar cookies, or lemonade.
I did not like the juice. I tried to save it by putting it in a smoothie. I did not like the smoothie. Defeated, I ate a muffin. It promptly turned to sand in my mouth.
I gave up on food at around 4pm. I guess that’s what anxiety does to you.
Anxiety and I have been bosom companions for the past three years. Being a full-time student was stressful enough, but now I’m a full-time student teetering on the cusp of post-grad-dom. And while I thought this last semester would be a sprint to the finish, instead it’s proven to be a long, grueling death match. There are so many things standing between me and this next chapter of my life–finishing up school projects, finding an apartment, tying up loose ends here and at home, graduating, moving. I’m overwhelmed. Everyone keeps exhorting me to “finish strong,” but at this point I’m ready to collapse across the finish line.
Still, so many things will change for the better after graduation–in my life in general, but also on this here bloggity-blog. Come May, I’m looking to do a bit of an overhaul. I have a lot of ideas about where to take it, and I’m eager to implement them. I’m eager to move forward. It’s been a long time since I’ve been eager to do, well, anything, so I’m not taking this feeling for granted.
Patience has never been my forte. But May will come when it comes, and it’s not like I don’t have anything to fill the time between now and then.
Posted by molly alice on April 19, 2012